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Icarus Phoenix B​-​Sides

by Drew Danburry

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1.
Just twist that knife, I feel it turn within me still I feel alright But the truth will bleed out, we crossed our path with creepers and we didn't quite stand down You can't disrupt the stars in their spiral dance I keep my guts inside by hand, I'm running down the street till my legs give up their plan I feel the hole inside my face and I cry out “go on then, stab me anyway” A style means an attitude, but this is far from keen Oh you plough boys and your clothes They may blame Ken for Ted but here in Clapham we all know A pack of spivs is trouble on the way
2.
A blitz beneath your hands, it left your face all damp A question caused a storm, a noise to cover for I climbed the stairs to find, your mouth covered his mind And when you finished I was dead It never happened but my brain feels like it did, the image piercing through my mind looping repeat It never happened but my brain feels like it's lead the image piercing right through me I walked around for days in such a broken haze the pain of everyone complete The process took so long, a part of me now gone. Is this how others feel at times? It never happened but my brain feels like it's dead, the image piercing through my mind loop and repeat It never happened but my brain feels like it's lead the image piercing right through me The pain keeps numbing every time that it repeats, so am I dying more or is this living? Lee and I decided not to care but to hurt no one, if I could just believe like I did once Me and Lee decided we don't wanna hurt no one It never happened but my brain feels like it did
3.
What's become of you? Is there anything I can do to change? To change your mind about What's become of me? Is there anyway I can see anymore? This mirror's adorned with Closing doors, baby kites. Father time, summer mores. So I hid away, found my balance realigned faith in what's sure and what's sure anymore? May be What connects us all, if you jump you fall but the pain is the same so let's commiserate and we'll share I'm ready for things to work out. I'm ready for things to make sense. I'm ready to love. Everyone and myself. I'm ready for things to work out. I'm ready for things to make sense. I'm ready to love. Everyone and myself.
4.
I underestimated home and gravity that's par. Nothing breaks off clean it never has (To) go home when it don't exist, a bicycle that doesn't fit. Friends I don't know anymore I feel like I have nothing good coming from out my mouth. I'd say who knows how these things go or why. Distant words with lack of ties, muted, hardened or gun shy but Struggling to connect at all There's too much of this world I can't understand and I don't think all those things will be understood and I don't ever think they Will you just stick to the script that was prewritten. I wish you wouldn't use such big long words. Singing while I ride my bike, the trees all wave as I pass by. Peace to be all by myself Aware of time, time that's past, time that's passing by (Aware of) OR (Counting) breath, focused sound, the moment is alive oh to be alive today
5.
I was on my bicycle when we collided we're so, we are so quick to be adults And I love you so much but I need some time just, I just need some time alone If kindness isn't flattering, degrading, insincere but wise Then knowing we deserve better doesn't always mean it's pride You placed a bandage over my scraped knee selfishly, to cover all the things you'd done You thought I'd keep the matter so quiet with your money, so worthless when you're wrong If loving loss and loneliness is one thing I just can't deny Then let me grow and learn to be the person you need by your side I think I saw you as a child for the first time right now A sylph so buxom and lithe but innocuous Trying to satisfy something grandly overwhelming Stuck in snowstorms of decisions that end up selfish Doo (7+9) Despite surroundings I'll master Doo (5+7+9) Dealing w/decisions un-prepared for You were always one of, one of those people you know where words seem pointless when you're round
6.
I remember how you complained bout the boys who constantly chased you So we'd laugh and rehearse how to say, you're committed to someone far away but You disappeared, it didn't look good and over the years they begged for answers One day they found everything out how your smiling face was bludgeoned and raped I'm so glad you fought, I'm so sad you died but you aren't defined by that awful time Devastation and the suffering we share, do we pass? Or find healing arms where We're united all one the same, to inflict, is to cause ourselves pain You disappeared, it didn't look good and over the years they begged for answers I'm so glad you fought, I'm so sad you died but you aren't defined by that awful time Maybe to complain is to know it could be much worse And knowing when its worse is not having time to say these words
7.
I can't seem to find, what's so obvious outside. Are we all so quick to judge? Is it you? Is it them? But the ground beneath my feet, what was once oh so complete Is a staggering array, overwhelmed & distraught Why does darkness stick? And all that negative? Trapped inside. Can we learn to let it go? To let the brightness flow? Pouring light all around. How we run in circles & puzzle over pieces made or both And this bridge so disconnected, this ocean oh so wide How I ache for lacing fingers and faith here inside But I circle constantly, pull the web from out my hair Fill an empty page with words, then just sit, and just stare, but Like the lady said, ___ I'm so conflicted without end Do you call this suffering or is this living cause I'm tired of it Counting steps ain't helping, there's always a choice Delay gratification, one day you'll find your voice
8.
Stop carrying all the weight of all those yesterdays Unburdened by the future you'll find it peaceful Romanticized it how you'd throw yourself right out And paint the insides grey some favor in advance You left your faithful group filled elephants with rooms In buildings made of eggshells why spark stampedes? The subject stays the same but how the lighting's changed They think it's just a stranger but hey it's me Alone, alone Those kindly words you use repeated are abused Words air breath words air breath I am too aloof to feel
9.
I've been blessed with shit luck There are some things that'll never change I get strung out and fed up with the strain Get a little more nervous everyday I just wanna be something Never thought I'd be nothing at all And it feels like I can't win I'm growing up and I'm giving in And it's starting to hurt And it feels like I can't win I couldn't wait to be alone again And I'm getting worse Say I never try, but you know I do I couldn't live with my 9 to 5 And I regret what I did to you my whole life No matter what I do I can never get anything right I just wanna be something Never thought I'd be nothing at all And it feels like I can't win I'm growing up and I'm giving in And it's starting to hurt And it feels like I can't win I couldn't wait to be alone again And I'm getting worse I might die of this boredom If you don't kill me first Chalk it up to apathy I had every chance I had every opportunity That I could want And I ruined them all I had every chance Never thought I'd be Nothing at all And it feels like I can't win I'm growing up and I'm giving in And it's starting to hurt And it feels like I can't win I couldn't wait to be alone again And I'm getting worse I might die of this boredom If you don't kill me first
10.
I am always amazed of everything we're convinced of How every single day we decide in a blink and blur Every complex equation becomes a simple choice A fellow human is reduced to a moment, face and voice So spit your vitriol out at others knowing they can't be Intelligent like yourself so very unlike me and you Should know the same things I know despite such different hands And I don't think we'll ever learn how to understand I've no solutions for this world, a burning pile of trash I'll probably sit and watch it burn appreciate the ashes A mouth so full of just causes & fine sentiment but lacking action is dead so we assume rather than ask

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Recording Icarus Phoenix was a life changing experience. I spent months preparing for the three days it took to record a total of 22 songs at June Audio in Provo, Utah.

It wouldn't be what it is if it wasn't for Jed Jones, Havoc Hendricks, J.R. Boyce, J.W. Teller and Rabbit. I won't go into all the magical details of how a seer predicted this or that beforehand or how it felt to be in the studio as those things came to pass. But it was magical. I hope you enjoy it. It changed my life and I have things to believe in again. With love and light from the darkness.
Sincerely, Drew

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released July 17, 2020

Album Art by J.R. Boyce
Produced, Mixed and Mastered by Jed Jones at June Audio in Provo, Utah
(Assistant Engineer – Josh Snider)
Additional Engineering by Robert Parr at Yellow Seahorse Recording Studio in Hamilton, MT
Additional Engineering by D. Barlow at the Tailor of Missoula Back Room Studio in Missoula, MT

Anni Gordon – Violin on tracks 1, 2 and 5
Havoc Hendricks – Drums on tracks 1, 2, 4, 6, 9 and 10
Jed Jones – Organ on tracks 5, 8 & 9, Synth on tracks 7-9, Wurlitzer on tracks 3 & 9, Piano on tracks 5, 7, and 9, Rhodes on track 3, and Music Box on track 8.
Josh Snider – Bass on tracks 1-3 and 5-9
J.R. Boyce – Bass on tracks 4 and 10
J.W. Teller – Backup Vocals on track 8
Rabbit – Vocals on tracks 6 and 8
A.R. Herrin – Vocals, Guitar, Sound Collages, Flute, Saxophone, Harmonica and everything else on everything else

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Drew Danburry Baltimore, Maryland

Drew Danburry has independently toured and released records since 2002.

He's released over 400 songs on over 20 albums/13 EPs and played 800 + shows worldwide. Including 2 Daytrotter sessions, 3 invitations to Pop Montreal, 1 to Pygmalion Music Festival and 1 to Treefort Music Festival.

He's accomplished this long list of acheivements almost entirely DIY.
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